How much I want to have kids...

ello...happy weekend. while i'm writing this, my husband is engrossed with playing football video game with his brother...everytime when we spend the weekend at his parent's house, he's definitely looking forward to these moments...way to go Chelsea...he likes Chelsea a lot.
anyways tadi i gi atria with my hubby and my niece n nephew...while trying on a pair of trouser at one of the boutique, the shopowner was commenting at how cute and adorable "anak2 awak ni"...kembang gak hati ni walaupun bukan anak kita...hehehe, but i really yearn for children...been married for 4 months only but really really looking forward to have kids...rasa tak seronok lah asik layan anak org lain, kalau anak diorang got so attached to me, nanti their mother pulak rasa offended atau tercabar, and i dun want to ruin that kind of r/ship.
i wish i can have kids soon...praying so hard....

Tough Day...

Akum - to all readers - kalau ada org yg baca lah kan. While I'm writing this blog, hubby I still stuck with that game I told you about...hmmm...tak taulah bila "fruit frolic mania" ni akan berakhir...anyway tadi i keje kat cyberjaya, ada 2-days keje kat situ...serioud penat tapi nak ckp gak pasal satu team member i ni....dia ni dah veteran, dah 12 tahun keje kat company ni...and i pulak baru keje 3 tahun stgh, and I'm his team lead...sejak i jadik team lead, dia ni tak penah nak tunjuk rasa hormat kat i, hormat yg i maksudkan ni bukanlah suruh tunduk sujud kat i pun, i just a little respect from him...tapi sumer yg i ckp tak penah nak ikut or take it seriously....
tadi keje tu sepatutnya start pukul 8am, tapi dia sampai kul 10am...and he didn't even care to call me to say that he's late ke apa...dahlah i takda handphone number dia (sebab dia tak nak bagi), pastu nak buat i tercongok tunggu dia mcm hapa...and kalau nak total kan, dia cuma ada kat depan mata I selama 2 jam je.....yg lain tu tak tau dia merayau ke mana, tak nampak langsung....susah betul nak siapkan keje....akhirnya memang tak siap pun, kena gi lagi esok....sometimes I dun understand this type of people, ignorance and selfish....dah tua pun tapi pikiran tak matang....
tension betul.....i need to get something to eat....tata...

Filem Melayu hari ini...

Hey there...puas gak nak bergilir dgn my hubby utk tulis dlm blog ni...but i'm so amazed at how engrossed he was when he was writing in this blog...i guess he has found himself a new hobby :)
I love you darling and keep it up...and also congrats for the bonus today...
Well, ari tu I baca blog Afdlin and read about his comments on Gol & Gincu...a malay film directed by Bernard Chauly...mula2 masa iklan dia kuar, I takda teringin langsung nak gi tgk....bukannya anti citer melayu tapi i sebenarnya among those yg selalu gi tgk citer melayu kat wayang - seimbang dgn citer omputeh and citer hindustan - reason why tak minat nak tgk citer ni maybe sebab pelakon2 yg tak baper terkenal or kira first timer berlakon....and poster dia pun mcm tak menarik org nak tgk....but after reading what Afdlin wrote, my hubby and I decided to give it a try last nite...and only one word can describe it, WOW! The second time I felt this way, after Sepet. It was the same feeling I had after I watched Sepet....best giler citer ni, bukannya apa, jalan citer dia real and tak mcm skrip langsung, it's like real story. I can put myself in the actors' situations along the movie, just like when I'm reading Sophie Kinsella books, I can imagined myself as the main character...
Hat off to Fazura...masa i tgk citer senario xx ari tuh, rasa mcm minah ni taklah bagus sgt but after yesterday, i rasa dia boleh dibentuk utk jadi a good actress....so does Sazzy...lakonan dia hidup sampai rasa menyampah dgn perangai dia, kira menjadi la tuh....also salute to all 3R hosts, boleh tahan berlakon....cuma mamat dua org dlm citer tu je yg mcm tak real, mcm berlakon - Asyraf and Mohd Pierre Andre (what a name...). Mcm baca skrip and expression muka mcm mati jer....
anyway scene diorang tu pun taklah byk sgt so tak rasa mengganggu sgt jalan citer tu.
Tapi apa yg i nak bangkitkan kat sini ialah betapa malunya i tengok citer melayu yg sgt best tapi hasil kerja org bukan melayu...kenapa org melayu bila tulis atau arah citer melayu, kita sebagai org melayu rasa meluat dan tak minat nak tgk....padahal patutnya org melayu yg terer buat citer melayu kan....secara rasionalnya lah...
I think it's about time for all org melayu buka mata dan minda to accept these types of movies...mana taknya, dah berkurun rasanya tak nampak org bukan melayu gi tengok citer melayu kat wayang....and I only saw that during citer sepet, buli, and gol & gincu.
Tetiba rasa patriotik tu membuak2...and guess what, diorang ni pun turut ketawa at the jokes and funny scene in the movies....maknanya diorang paham and can connect to the movie...
I hope there'll be more movies like this, rather than citer yg nak buat mcm Nutty Professor tuh ker, atau citer2 cinta yg terlalu berlakon and tak real tuh ker....mana ada org bercinta ckp "Aku cinta padamu" (bak kata my husband) in real life??? Takdanya ckp mcm tu...
Anyways, congrats ti Bernard and warga kerjanya...buatlah lagi citer melayu yg best ok.

Back to me and my hubby pulak, kitorang la ni dah addicted dgn satu game dlm PDA dia...ari2 dok mengadap game tuh, sampaikan teringat2 dan termimpi2...teruk kan....hubby, u lah yg introduce kan game ni kat I...isk isk isk....yg best tu, kitorang asik nak compete kalahkan masing2 punya record...yg still dipegang oleh I (yiippeee!)....but I doubt that will stay long as I know my husband very well....dia memang terer bab2 ni...
I love u sayang....jom tido...esok nak keje! Chiao!

my golden ticket

I'm so happy today, maybe this is how charlie felt when he found out the golden ticket in a wonka bar, it is the same feeling i experienced during my childhood after my parents gave me duit raya...yipee..although raya season will not come in a couple of months, something really great had happened today, and it consist of only five letter words.........B.O.N.U.S

hello...hello....hello

huh,

tak tau nak cakap apa pulak, kejap tadi cam byk je idea, ok since my wife dah tulis a few entry kat bawah tu, now it is my turn things upside down, just kidding lah...pheww..how else can i describe my nearly 4 months AMAZINGGG!!! married life with my wife. What a wonderful person she is, very caring and lovely. thanks wife, for taking care of me during high and low times, i've been occasionally sick (asthma) lately, i believe that it is not easy to deal with sickness especially the ones with unexpected attacks like asthma, i don't consider myself having a critical asthma illness, i was actively involved in sports during schooltime, (soccer, track events..200m and 400m single/relay, ping pong..uhh some people call it table tennis, marathon, badminton ) to name a few. I hate to put myself in a condition where i have to limit myself to do what other perfectly healthy kids do at school. At the same time, i admit that i can be consider as keras kepala when it comes to medication, dun get me wrong okay, i've been there, going to hospitals, taking inhaler and pills, and the only lesson i learned from all that was it does not helps for a asthmatic person to undergo such treatment as it would only makes me feels sicker, all the drugs i've been put into did not makes me better, coz most of the doctor i've seen always told me that there is no cure for asthma, the medication is mainly to fix you when the attacks kicks in.I guess this is why i seldom tell people about the sickness that i have, not because i dun like the sympathy, but i always believe that it makes me a lot healthier and i am more confident in myself by doing so. Do you think that my sports teacher would allow me to play football if i tell them beforehand that i have asthma? what about my chances to be able to go to drilling rigs (offshore) when i worked at one of the oil n gas company recently.

If there is a will, there is always a hope.

I understand that it is not a joke to tell people that i survive all that, i surely did a lot of preparation and proper judgment in order to overcome all that, did i face difficulties? sure i did but that would be another stories la...

till then, happy birthday to my wife (dah wish tapi saja nak wish lagi kat blog ni...may Allah bless her with happiness and joy)

A day after my birthday...

Hey there...another day begins...the usual chores on Sunday---basuh baju, sidai baju, masak and kemas bilik.
I cooked chicken curry today, after my mum said "hari ni u masak, mama nak rehat pulak"...oh no, not in her bad mood again! I buat "derk" jer...and terus masak...no hal, masak je lah curry.
But you know what, bila tengah tunggu curry tu menggelegak, my mum tetiba dtg to me and said, mama suka u masak curry, ur curry sedap, sebab tu mama saja letak ayam kat luar tu supaya u boleh masak curry....terdiam i kejap, sebab selama i kawin, dah 3 bulan memasak kat rumah ni, this is the first ever my mum puji masakan I. Thats amazing....alhamdulillah.

Petang dihabiskan dengan melawat rumah my aunty....it was nice. I got to meet my cousin who's studying in Germany...dia balik cuti so dtg melawat rumah i and to my another aunty's house.
Bila sampai kat rumah my aunty tu, the first remark she made to my husband is "eh, dah gain weight dah ni, perut dah nampak dah"....and man, how pissed I was...! Orang melayu ni dah takda benda lain ke nak komen....dahlah 3 bulan tak jumpa, the first remark has to be that way??? Tanyalah apa kabar ke, pujila muka berseri2 sejak kawin ke, nampak sihat mungkin sebab isteri pandai masak ke kan....ni tak, asik2 nak komen perut orang....bukan my hubby je yg kena....my cousin tu pun kena gak...dahlah dia balik dari germany setahun sekali....ni first thing nak komen pasal dia was "amboi perut tu dah nampak berlapis dah, selalu baring ke lepas makan? tengok aunty ni, takda pun perut berlapis"....what the h..l? nasib baik budak tu pun dah immune dah dgn komen2 tak bermakna mcm tu. taulah she's our aunty but that doesn't gave her the right to comment that way....
Sometimes i memang tak paham dgn org melayu ni....i still remembered there was one kenduri that I attended and my mum introduced me to another relative, whom I never met, and her first comment was, "amboi sihatnya, besar dp maknya!" what did she think I felt at that time? masalahnya yg bagi komen tu pun badan mcm tempayan kembang...kenapalah nak bagi komen mcm tu kat org yg first time u jumpa??? tension betul lah...
why can't people just accept other as what they are? if I'm overweight but I'm terribly happy, isn't happiness the most important thing? The thing is I'm happy the way I am, and my husband is happy with me, but why can't other people reserve their bad comment and accept me the way I am? I'm overweight but I'm not obese....and I still take care of my health. I have good job, have good life...so I just wish that other people could take care of their own business and start talking about other beneficial things rather than making other people feel bad with their stupid comments.....
Anyways, dah 26 tahun I live with this kind of comments...with this kind of people....and so far, no one has changed....too bad for them....
I have nothing to lose and this is who I am....and my hubby loves me very much and Allah loves me endlessly. Tu yg lagi penting dlm hidup ni....

My Birthday...

Hi there...when i first started to write this blog, it was intended for daily postings...tapi nampaknya susah gak nak disiplin kan diri to write something everyday. My hubby pun takda masa langsung nak write anything...hmmm....time really flies.
Anyway, today is my birthday. Yg ke...dot dot dot. Last nite my in-laws family dah sambut my birthday...bestnya, the first time sambut birthday with a big family. Well, i'm the only child in the family. All this while, cuma mama, papa and myself yg akan sambut birthday...tapi this is the first time i sambut dgn husband, mak mertua, ayah mertua dan 6 adik beradik yg lain dan 6 anak-anak saudara...giler best...rasa terharu yg amat sgt.
And when the clock stroke 12am, my husband gave me my present...i was in tears when i opened it....happy sgt sebab dpt apa yg diidamkan....thanks darling and i love you so much too.
Bila bgn pagi ni, tengok2 ada santarina claus yg letak hadiah kat depan pintu bilik...rupanya mama dah letak kan hadiah...she gave me a gold necklace and a pair of earrings...mama memang suka bagi jewellery and guess what, I LIKE IT! Hehehe...
And I hugged her tightly and said thank you...i was in tears again. Ever since I got married since 4 months ago, I felt a little gap between me and my mum. I don't know why and when did that happened....getting married and living with my parents require me to be very good in dividing my time and try to make everyone happy.
I want to please everybody...and that requires a lot of effort...being working 5 days-week with more than 8 hours per day...and to do houseworks like any other wives....phew, I didn't know that it will be this challenging. And back to my mum, am not sure why she's been picking on me since I got married...she tells me to do a lot of things...and worse thing is to do like how she did them....I don't want to be like her, I want to be myself. I want to wash clothes the way I want it, I want to cook the way I want it, I want to do everything like my own way....but she keeps telling me "this is not how I did it, you should do this way...". I never felt so stupid like now...
but my husband usually tells me to be patient...and yeah, I have been patient and follow every single thing she told me to do....but it seems that she's never satisfied with what I have done. I don't like the gap that we have now...we used to have a good relationship....tapi ntahlah, i just have to be more patient, I guess. Her mood swing yg I paling kena sabar...and today nasib baik she has good mood.

Petang tadi lepas kemas2 bilik and lipat baju, my husband and I went to his parents house. Niat di hati nak berkaraoke kat bangsar...tried to coax my sis in law gak tapi dia tak nak gi. So we went to BSC with my younger sis in law, bro in law and one of my nieces. Best giler...melalak habis-habisan sampai 9pm. I had a great time...we went home and had dinner with his family.
Sampai rumah dah nak dekat 12am...we spent time chatting with each other....bestlah dah kahwin ni, takyah pakai handphone pun nak ckp panjang2....borak sampai nearly 2am...at no cost at all!

Happy Birthday to myself....:-P

The Story Begins...

Hi everyone...all these years, I've been reading several blogs from my friends and some recommended ones, but I've never got "hidayah" to create one of my own...until today, when I read Afdlin Shauki's blog, I terpikir eh kenapa aku pun tak create blog sendiri coz I like to talk to people and sharing ideas....daripada asyik pok pek tak tentu pasal, baik post kat sini...at least minda berkembang and many brains to share.
Blog ni sebenarnya shareable area between me and my dearest hubby - thanks to him for persuading me to read Afdlin's blog. Terus terbukak minda...
So you'll see more entries by both of us, whenever we have the time....while I'm writing this, he's resting on the bed....after a long day of work...phew sapa kata keje ofis tak penat?
Sebenarnya apa2 keje pun penat gak, jadik contractor ke, jadik tukang basuh pinggan kat kedai makan ke, jadik computer analyst ke....sumer pun memerlukan a lot of energy.
Dan to all working women out there, let's salute ourselves coz sebenarnya keje kita ni yg paling mencabar skali....after working in the office, balik memasak, gosok baju untuk hari esok, basuh baju, exercise malam dan sebagainya....we are truly the superwomen!
Salute to all of you and stay strong....Oklah, I'll write more later. Chiao!